I'll start by saying, this is not #10 as there has been way more than that since coming back to the Lord, but that is the number that came to my head, so I'll go with it. ;) This month marks the 4th year since coming back to the Lord for our son and myself and for Hubs accepting Him! It's such a good feeling.
So what is it that came today? Today I went to my chiropractor appt. feeling drained. I had already decided that I needed a day to rest. I've been going full board for weeks now and am exhausted mentally and physically. So I figured, "okay, I can miss group today as I have the DVD and can stay caught up with it. Tomorrow I don't have a way to stay up with that group, so I need to attend that one.
I figured I would stop by the church to drop off the dish towels that I take home and wash and set up coffee like I usually do and then leave. I was going to make up a lame excuse, but instead told one of the leaders the truth that I needed some rest. While listening to myself explain why I wasn't going to attend, I thought of how silly my excuse sounded. So I stayed. I used a napkin to take notes on and was relieved I had stayed. I had asked for prayer and for my husbands business as well.
While Miss P. and others prayed over me, Ms. P said, "I am to tell you that you need to ask whether you should say yes or no before you give an answer instead of saying yes, as you may be taking away someone elses blessing the Father is trying to give them." Wow! That hit home. I had heard the week before of how we should make sure we don't steel others blessings.
This stayed with me on the way home I was contemplating those words, frustrated in a sense, as I knew there was a lot to do at home, this needed to be taken care of, that needed to be taken care of, I don't spend enough time in the Word, I play too often on FB as that is my way of relaxing; but because I do that, many things are left undone, why is it always such a vicious circle.
Then my mind changed to why do I have a hard time saying no? At first I knew it's because I have a heart that wants to help as much and as often as I can. It's a way to connect with others, to be around others, to feel fulfilled. Then it hit; wake up call #10; I was doing it for "acceptance." Say what?
Pretty much all my life I've been picked on, teased, called names, told I was worthless and wouldn't amount to much, and on and on the list goes. Plus some things that had happened at home as well. So instead of listening to the positive that would come my way, I'd dwell on all those hurtful things said to me. I hated who I was. I grew up and lived all these years trying to be who I thought I needed to be in order to be accepted.
People tell me that they think I'm a great person, sweet, caring, etc; but I couldn't accept what they were saying, as I felt it was all just a front. Now mind you, it's not with everyone that I feel that way now. I felt that they felt sorry for me and were just trying to be kind. I feel that people are talking about me and poking fun of me behind my back. Or when people would whisper, giggle and be looking at me or would roll their eyes, all those words came flooding into my mind, and I just kept sinking lower.
So I pour myself into doing as much as I can as often as I can to try and find that acceptance. I live to hear, "Great job! Thanks for your help, we really appreciate what you do," and on and on. How pathetic is that? I was looking for some magical "words" to come and take away all the hurt that has been built up in me for years.
I'm a very shy person and have a hard time feeling comfortable around authoritative people, such as Pastors. I know part of that comes from being taught respect for those above us. But then today I was reminded that they are no better than anyone else. They are just using their gift the good Lord gave them to do.
So now I'm at the point of trying to change my way of thinking. I'll be doing a lot of praying, asking for guidance, what my gift(s) really are, how should I be responding to requests to help, why does it feel so wrong for me to say no? Will I ever get rid of this restless, I'm no good, I won't amount to much, I have no talent, I dress weird, I'm fat, people are making fun of me, I don't want to talk to anyone as what comes out of my mouth is stupid. People have been telling me this for years.
So now I come in peace & know this will be a process to overcome. I thought I had this beat a while ago, but only to realize I was trying to ignore it. Instead I come asking for prayer to be lifted up and hear His voice lead me and to be rid of the negative voices that continue to attack my mind.
I bid you all good day. I pray that you all have confidence in yourselves. Never let the arrows/darts that others throw at you invade your mind. Cast all your cares to the Lord. For those that have been through this, let those words fall off your shoulders. Don't believe them. It's all a work of the enemy trying to weaken you. Don't let him win. Instead, gather your strength from the almighty power of God. The one who loves you unconditioanlly, "always."
For those of you who may judge and tease others; think about what you are saying and your actions, as often times, actions will speak louder than words. Words do cut like a kife and stay with a person. Be kind, loving and gentle. Put yourself in that other persons place and ask youreslf how you would feel if someone were doing that to you. Think before you act/speak and/or do. Blessings, peace, love and prosperity to each and everyone of you.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Seeing Things in a Different Light
Today while driving into Boise via the connector, I looked upon the valley in a whole new light. I've never seen it in this manner before. It took on a whole new, beautiful look. It is impossible to explain it exactly other than the Lord has been moving me in new directions and taking me to knew levels. I just drove in awe at this new found beauty of our surroundings. Thanking Him the whole time for this new light.
I made it to hubs appointment and then went to coffee with him. The mood had changed. Concern came over me for my husband. He seemed to have something troubling him and wouldn't open up, as he does often.
We parted, he headed for work, myself heading to pick up two of the grand kids; one of which is home sick. I was pondering over hubs, wondering what must be going on in his mind, when I all of a sudden focused on worshipping the Lord. On my way home was the usual crazy driving of some, slow from some, excessive speeds by others, and then there is that one that seems to want to join you in your lane. But this time it didn't bother me so much. What was going on?
I look in my review mirror after picking up the kids and see a young girl smiling from ear to ear, blowing a bubble from her gum and talking on the phone. At first I was thinking, great, watch her run into the back of me as she's not paying attention. Then all of a sudden the Lord took hold of me, and I was reminded not to judge.
Then I saw her as a beautiful girl, smiling, happy, childlike the way He wants us to be. I thought you know, we are all different in so many ways, but are all alike as well. We are all sons and daughters of the Lord our God. We all have a special place in this crazy world. Then I really got to looking at people as they drove by.
What did I see? People of all walks of life. Then I thought about how some were obviously not well off financially and some were well off. I thought back to a time when finances were bad. We didn't know if we were going to be able to keep our house, our vehicles needed work done on them, were we going to lose them too? How would we get to work. What about our kids, what would happen to them.
That's when I thought; we have so much to be thankful for. It doesn't matter what we have. It doesn't matter whether or not we are rich or poor. It doesn't matter what we wear. What matters is how we treat one another. What matters is what is in our heart. What matters is do we accept our Father and walk in the manner in which He desires for us to walk? Are we shining His light? Are we kind, gentle, loving, full of grace and mercy, thoughtful, joyfull, living with the Fruit of the Spirit in us?
Gratefulness, Thankfullness and Joy filled my heart. Gone was any worries. Gone was the comtemplations of, we need this or that, the worries about how to handle this mess, what should be said or done about this or that problem. I was reminded to hand all my cares to the Lord and let His light shine through. I had a heart and soul that understood and realized the value He was showing me and placed right in front of my face.
A new energy came about. No more frustration over things not getting done. Gone was the irritation over how busy life has become and how it seemed I needed to drop something of which I was involved in doing, but where and what to choose as I knew that I needed to be in the groups that I am to learn and come closer to Him. I knew that volunteering is where I'm suppose to be. I know the importance of watching the grandkids; then of course the house has to be cleaned...how was I going to do it all. Laughter filled my head. "Silly one, has He not always provided? Has He not always walked you through those difficult times? Has it not been good to get home and feel wonderfully exhausted knowing full well good things came from the day?
A small sacrifice for all that He offers us and gives us each and every day. He "always" provides; even in those times we feel it's not what we wanted. He knows what is best for us, what is "needed" at the right time.
Step back/sit back and really look at your surroundings. Look at those that are around you. See the uniqueness each one of us has to offer. Look at all the beauty He has provided us. What a wonderful world it really is. There may be some darkness in your life, but His light will shine through eventually when the time is right. For it is by His plans and His perfect timing that all comes together for the good of all. Take in a deep breath, smile, let your heart sing joyfully. Know that He is near. Never will He forsake you. Never will He leave you. Blessings to All!
I made it to hubs appointment and then went to coffee with him. The mood had changed. Concern came over me for my husband. He seemed to have something troubling him and wouldn't open up, as he does often.
We parted, he headed for work, myself heading to pick up two of the grand kids; one of which is home sick. I was pondering over hubs, wondering what must be going on in his mind, when I all of a sudden focused on worshipping the Lord. On my way home was the usual crazy driving of some, slow from some, excessive speeds by others, and then there is that one that seems to want to join you in your lane. But this time it didn't bother me so much. What was going on?
I look in my review mirror after picking up the kids and see a young girl smiling from ear to ear, blowing a bubble from her gum and talking on the phone. At first I was thinking, great, watch her run into the back of me as she's not paying attention. Then all of a sudden the Lord took hold of me, and I was reminded not to judge.
Then I saw her as a beautiful girl, smiling, happy, childlike the way He wants us to be. I thought you know, we are all different in so many ways, but are all alike as well. We are all sons and daughters of the Lord our God. We all have a special place in this crazy world. Then I really got to looking at people as they drove by.
What did I see? People of all walks of life. Then I thought about how some were obviously not well off financially and some were well off. I thought back to a time when finances were bad. We didn't know if we were going to be able to keep our house, our vehicles needed work done on them, were we going to lose them too? How would we get to work. What about our kids, what would happen to them.
That's when I thought; we have so much to be thankful for. It doesn't matter what we have. It doesn't matter whether or not we are rich or poor. It doesn't matter what we wear. What matters is how we treat one another. What matters is what is in our heart. What matters is do we accept our Father and walk in the manner in which He desires for us to walk? Are we shining His light? Are we kind, gentle, loving, full of grace and mercy, thoughtful, joyfull, living with the Fruit of the Spirit in us?
Gratefulness, Thankfullness and Joy filled my heart. Gone was any worries. Gone was the comtemplations of, we need this or that, the worries about how to handle this mess, what should be said or done about this or that problem. I was reminded to hand all my cares to the Lord and let His light shine through. I had a heart and soul that understood and realized the value He was showing me and placed right in front of my face.
A new energy came about. No more frustration over things not getting done. Gone was the irritation over how busy life has become and how it seemed I needed to drop something of which I was involved in doing, but where and what to choose as I knew that I needed to be in the groups that I am to learn and come closer to Him. I knew that volunteering is where I'm suppose to be. I know the importance of watching the grandkids; then of course the house has to be cleaned...how was I going to do it all. Laughter filled my head. "Silly one, has He not always provided? Has He not always walked you through those difficult times? Has it not been good to get home and feel wonderfully exhausted knowing full well good things came from the day?
A small sacrifice for all that He offers us and gives us each and every day. He "always" provides; even in those times we feel it's not what we wanted. He knows what is best for us, what is "needed" at the right time.
Step back/sit back and really look at your surroundings. Look at those that are around you. See the uniqueness each one of us has to offer. Look at all the beauty He has provided us. What a wonderful world it really is. There may be some darkness in your life, but His light will shine through eventually when the time is right. For it is by His plans and His perfect timing that all comes together for the good of all. Take in a deep breath, smile, let your heart sing joyfully. Know that He is near. Never will He forsake you. Never will He leave you. Blessings to All!
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Taming that Tongue
I'm going to start this with Scripture and then tell a good piece I read today that led me to this very subject.
James 3:3-12
3 Now when we put bits into the mouths of horses to make them obey us, we also guide the whole animal.
4 And consider ships: though very large and driven by fierce winds, they are guided by a very small rudder wherever the will of the pilot directs.
5 So too, though the tongue is a samll part [of the body], it boasts great things. Consider how large a forest a small fire ignites.
6 And the tongue is a fire. The tongue, a world of unrighteousness, is placed among the parts of our [bodies]; it pollutes the whole body, sets the course of life on fire, and is set on fire by hell.
7 For every creature--animal or bird, reptile or fish--is tamed and has been tamed by man,
8 but no man can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison.
9 With it we bless our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men who are made in God's likeness.
10 Out of the same mouth come blessings and cursing. My brothers, these things should not be this way.
11 Does not a spring pour out sweet and bitter water from the same opening?
12 Can a fig tree porduce olives, my brothers, or a grapevine [produce] figs? Neither can a saltwater spring yield fresh water.
"With it we bless the Lord and Father, and with it we curse men who are made in God's likeness."
I've read this very chapter over and over and it never hit home until recently just how serious this is. This very verse never hit until lately. Think about it. When we talk poorly of someone, curse, shout or ridicule, we are putting our Lord down! We may bless Him but we still curse Him. How sad is that. Not to mention what we are doing by gossiping, sneering at, ridiculing, etc what that does to a person. Why do we continue to insist on bringing one another; our brothers and sisters; down?
Our tongue is an evil vessel when we do not control it. I'm soooo guilty of having an evil tongue that has started many a fire. This all while being in the flesh, not connected to the Lord. Now I have better control, but still balk at some of the things that escape my mouth. I really believe we all need to remind ourselves daily about how we use our tongue. Keep it in check.
So what brought me to this was a saying I came across today that really touched me. It is sooooo very true. This is the jest of, not the exact wording.
Although a persons reputation may have been repaired, it doesn't take away the fact that people still remember and carry with them, that which brought the scar upon the person in the first place.
So this to me says, control what you say, for you may ruin a person for life. A physical hurt can heal, a mental scar is there forever. Once you have said something you shouldn't have, it's there for good. You can't take it back no matter how hard you try.
Remember to use the "Fruit of the Spirit" when talking and in your actions. Be loving, share a smile, use kindness, love on one another. We never know what is going on in a persons life fully. Don't be their judge, be their friend, or their prayer warrior, or what ever it is that they need. Those that seem wicked, seem dirty, are doing something we don't agree with; need our prayer more than those that we see and know and have befriended. For does it not say in Matthew 5:43-48: But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45 so that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. For He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46 For if you love those who love you, what reward will you have? Don't even the tax collectors do the same? 47 and if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing out of the ordinary? Don't even the Gentiles do the same? 48 Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
Hmmm, we are called upon to love our enemies. Do we do anything out of the ordinary? Or are we able to live "extraordinary" lives?
Be blessed everyone. Go out there and love on your neighbors, your "brothers and sisters." As I've heard for years; "If you have nothing good to say, then don't bother saying it at all." Boy was that ever good advice. Better to keep the tongue silent than to start a fire. :)
James 3:3-12
3 Now when we put bits into the mouths of horses to make them obey us, we also guide the whole animal.
4 And consider ships: though very large and driven by fierce winds, they are guided by a very small rudder wherever the will of the pilot directs.
5 So too, though the tongue is a samll part [of the body], it boasts great things. Consider how large a forest a small fire ignites.
6 And the tongue is a fire. The tongue, a world of unrighteousness, is placed among the parts of our [bodies]; it pollutes the whole body, sets the course of life on fire, and is set on fire by hell.
7 For every creature--animal or bird, reptile or fish--is tamed and has been tamed by man,
8 but no man can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison.
9 With it we bless our Lord and Father, and with it we curse men who are made in God's likeness.
10 Out of the same mouth come blessings and cursing. My brothers, these things should not be this way.
11 Does not a spring pour out sweet and bitter water from the same opening?
12 Can a fig tree porduce olives, my brothers, or a grapevine [produce] figs? Neither can a saltwater spring yield fresh water.
"With it we bless the Lord and Father, and with it we curse men who are made in God's likeness."
I've read this very chapter over and over and it never hit home until recently just how serious this is. This very verse never hit until lately. Think about it. When we talk poorly of someone, curse, shout or ridicule, we are putting our Lord down! We may bless Him but we still curse Him. How sad is that. Not to mention what we are doing by gossiping, sneering at, ridiculing, etc what that does to a person. Why do we continue to insist on bringing one another; our brothers and sisters; down?
Our tongue is an evil vessel when we do not control it. I'm soooo guilty of having an evil tongue that has started many a fire. This all while being in the flesh, not connected to the Lord. Now I have better control, but still balk at some of the things that escape my mouth. I really believe we all need to remind ourselves daily about how we use our tongue. Keep it in check.
So what brought me to this was a saying I came across today that really touched me. It is sooooo very true. This is the jest of, not the exact wording.
Although a persons reputation may have been repaired, it doesn't take away the fact that people still remember and carry with them, that which brought the scar upon the person in the first place.
So this to me says, control what you say, for you may ruin a person for life. A physical hurt can heal, a mental scar is there forever. Once you have said something you shouldn't have, it's there for good. You can't take it back no matter how hard you try.
Remember to use the "Fruit of the Spirit" when talking and in your actions. Be loving, share a smile, use kindness, love on one another. We never know what is going on in a persons life fully. Don't be their judge, be their friend, or their prayer warrior, or what ever it is that they need. Those that seem wicked, seem dirty, are doing something we don't agree with; need our prayer more than those that we see and know and have befriended. For does it not say in Matthew 5:43-48: But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45 so that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. For He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46 For if you love those who love you, what reward will you have? Don't even the tax collectors do the same? 47 and if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing out of the ordinary? Don't even the Gentiles do the same? 48 Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
Hmmm, we are called upon to love our enemies. Do we do anything out of the ordinary? Or are we able to live "extraordinary" lives?
Be blessed everyone. Go out there and love on your neighbors, your "brothers and sisters." As I've heard for years; "If you have nothing good to say, then don't bother saying it at all." Boy was that ever good advice. Better to keep the tongue silent than to start a fire. :)
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Sean Shed 258 Pounds Without a Single Salad - That's Fit
Sean Shed 258 Pounds Without a Single Salad - That's Fit
What an inspirational story. For the first time in years, I really feel like I can shed the weight I need to lose! Thank you Sean. "Diets" don't work. I've tried so many. Many "diet plans" have you count calories, but you still have to eat certain foods.
This makes sense. Your whole system makes so much sense. For those of you that need and want to lose weight, read this story and visit Daily Diet of a Winning Loser. I'm going to meditat on this whole start of a new life and start on Monday. Anyone wanting to join in with me is welcome to share as well.
Looking forward to a new healthy lifestyle. One with no more stressing on how "fat" I am. No more feeling lousy. Getting rid of the health issues that come from being over weight!!! Hallelujah!
What an inspirational story. For the first time in years, I really feel like I can shed the weight I need to lose! Thank you Sean. "Diets" don't work. I've tried so many. Many "diet plans" have you count calories, but you still have to eat certain foods.
This makes sense. Your whole system makes so much sense. For those of you that need and want to lose weight, read this story and visit Daily Diet of a Winning Loser. I'm going to meditat on this whole start of a new life and start on Monday. Anyone wanting to join in with me is welcome to share as well.
Looking forward to a new healthy lifestyle. One with no more stressing on how "fat" I am. No more feeling lousy. Getting rid of the health issues that come from being over weight!!! Hallelujah!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Jonny Diaz 'A More Beautiful You'
This is a beautiful song for young girls, but also is good for any woman lacking self respect and/or confidence. You are all beautiful! Believe in yourself. You all have a specific purpose in this life. No one is lesser than the other. Hold your head high knowing that your are loved and needed.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Eric Duquette, a Salutatorian Who Has Autism, Rocks Graduation Speech
What an amazing heart warming story. It just goes to show that with persistance, love, nurturing, never giving up on your child and work with their abilities not with their disability, the child can enjoy life. This story comes at a perfect time in a few of our lives. We now know what to do. It has equipped me with a much better mindset.
Eric Duquette, a Salutatorian Who Has Autism, Rocks Graduation Speech
Eric Duquette, a Salutatorian Who Has Autism, Rocks Graduation Speech
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Simon Cowell Grants Young Girl's Final Wish
Simon Cowell Grants Young Girl's Final Wish
This story really touched my heart. My heart goes out to this little ones family. What a brave little girl she was. Something we can all learn from.
I've always liked Simon Cowell although he can have a brash tongue from time to time. He's doing the job he's being paid to do and that is to find real talent. Perhaps toning down his points to some would help. This just shows the man has a heart which he has shown in the past.
May the Lord wrap His arms around the family of the little girl and comfort them in their loss of their precious gift from above. Bless you Simon for granting her wish and fulfilling a dream of someone so young. May she now rest in peace.
This story really touched my heart. My heart goes out to this little ones family. What a brave little girl she was. Something we can all learn from.
I've always liked Simon Cowell although he can have a brash tongue from time to time. He's doing the job he's being paid to do and that is to find real talent. Perhaps toning down his points to some would help. This just shows the man has a heart which he has shown in the past.
May the Lord wrap His arms around the family of the little girl and comfort them in their loss of their precious gift from above. Bless you Simon for granting her wish and fulfilling a dream of someone so young. May she now rest in peace.
Saturday, April 3, 2010
The Passion
Just watched the Passion of Christ again. We watch it every Easter. It is always so hard to watch the beatings, the horrible treatment that Jesus endured through the capture, the trials, and the crucifixion. All the evil that took place. The tears flow and once again I shout, "Lord I am not worthy of your love. I Thank You for all that your endured for our sins."
While watching the movie I ask how people can be so evil. How could one or more get such satisfaction out of torturing another being. How when obviously one is near death the beatings continue on. The laughter that took place, the happiness received from such devastation.
And yet these things continue on today. You hear of people being beaten to death. A person is knocked to the ground, beaten, kicked in the head, spit on. Have we not learned yet. It is sad how easy it is to be of the flesh, of the world. Humans, meager mortals.
There is another way that we beat people down and that is with our tongues. Once again I'm reminded of the destruction we can cause with a simple slip of the tongue. Gossip, talking poorly of another, speaking out in anger, etc. Guilty of that very thing, my heart hurts asking, "Why? Why do I continue to do these things?" My heart belongs to the Lord, yet I still will slander another out of anger and hurt.
Some of us try hard to curb our tongues and not talk of others. There is a difference between discussing problems in the family and trying to come together to work the problems out or with a friend. But it turns to slander when we put that person(s) down and talk badly of them because we don't like what they are doing.
We must be a repentant soul, on our knees asking for forgiveness and working ever so hard on having the heart of the Lord, to love one another and yes, especially our enemies, for they do not know and need help. It is our place to walk in the ways of the Lord and help those in need.
Matthew 16:24-27 NKJV
24Then Jesus said to His disciples, "If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me.
25For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it.
26For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole word, and loses his own soul? Or what will a man give in exchanger for his soul?
27For the Son of Man will come in the glory of His Father with His angels, and then He will reward each according to his works."
A trip with my grand kids and friends one day. The youngest girl, "Easter is all about candy and egg hunts." One of the boys that does not believe, (a friend of theirs) says, "No it isn't, it's about the Resurrection of Christ." Be still my heart. I was so elated to hear that. I then told her, he's right. It's not about candy and egg hunts, it's about the crucifixion of Christ for he died for our sins and then rose again. Silence, pure silence. The children sitting there letting it soak in. Then, "Oh wow, really Omah?" Yes sweety, that is what Easter is all about. We are to give thanks for His great sacrifice that He made up there on that cross for us.
Will you pick up your cross and carry it. Come join me in cleansing our souls, washing our hands of all the filth that we allow to cross our paths, giving up ourselves and carrying our cross following our Lord and Savior, giving thanks to the Lord our God!
I wish you all a Blessed and Happy Easter. Be thankful for all you have and do not fret over the little things, worrying about what you want, but rather dwelling on what you have to give.
While watching the movie I ask how people can be so evil. How could one or more get such satisfaction out of torturing another being. How when obviously one is near death the beatings continue on. The laughter that took place, the happiness received from such devastation.
And yet these things continue on today. You hear of people being beaten to death. A person is knocked to the ground, beaten, kicked in the head, spit on. Have we not learned yet. It is sad how easy it is to be of the flesh, of the world. Humans, meager mortals.
There is another way that we beat people down and that is with our tongues. Once again I'm reminded of the destruction we can cause with a simple slip of the tongue. Gossip, talking poorly of another, speaking out in anger, etc. Guilty of that very thing, my heart hurts asking, "Why? Why do I continue to do these things?" My heart belongs to the Lord, yet I still will slander another out of anger and hurt.
Some of us try hard to curb our tongues and not talk of others. There is a difference between discussing problems in the family and trying to come together to work the problems out or with a friend. But it turns to slander when we put that person(s) down and talk badly of them because we don't like what they are doing.
We must be a repentant soul, on our knees asking for forgiveness and working ever so hard on having the heart of the Lord, to love one another and yes, especially our enemies, for they do not know and need help. It is our place to walk in the ways of the Lord and help those in need.
Matthew 16:24-27 NKJV
24Then Jesus said to His disciples, "If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me.
25For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it.
26For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole word, and loses his own soul? Or what will a man give in exchanger for his soul?
27For the Son of Man will come in the glory of His Father with His angels, and then He will reward each according to his works."
A trip with my grand kids and friends one day. The youngest girl, "Easter is all about candy and egg hunts." One of the boys that does not believe, (a friend of theirs) says, "No it isn't, it's about the Resurrection of Christ." Be still my heart. I was so elated to hear that. I then told her, he's right. It's not about candy and egg hunts, it's about the crucifixion of Christ for he died for our sins and then rose again. Silence, pure silence. The children sitting there letting it soak in. Then, "Oh wow, really Omah?" Yes sweety, that is what Easter is all about. We are to give thanks for His great sacrifice that He made up there on that cross for us.
Will you pick up your cross and carry it. Come join me in cleansing our souls, washing our hands of all the filth that we allow to cross our paths, giving up ourselves and carrying our cross following our Lord and Savior, giving thanks to the Lord our God!
I wish you all a Blessed and Happy Easter. Be thankful for all you have and do not fret over the little things, worrying about what you want, but rather dwelling on what you have to give.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Please Pray!
Please be praying for Shorty Bear and Love Bug. They both are going through some really tough times. Love Bug is without feeling in his legs and can not work. Shorty Bear is losing her eye sight and dealing with other health issues. They have a very small amount of income and are in need of help. She is trying for SSI, but anyone that has dealt with that knows that it can take forever for it to go through.
Let's lift them both up in prayer for healing and provisions. May the Lord Bless them greatly. Bless you all.
Let's lift them both up in prayer for healing and provisions. May the Lord Bless them greatly. Bless you all.
Monday, March 22, 2010
A Dedication to My Daughter
My heart was empty and cold. Full of anger instead of love.
I walked away from the daughter that means the world to me.
Why you ask, because I let the ways of the flesh walk in.
I held within my arms a shell of a woman.
I saw the darkness in her eyes; knowing her light was slowly dying out.
Yet I did not let it strike the chord it should have.
No empathy did I feel; only confusion and frustration.
I thought to myself, "I did not raise you this way! What is wrong with you?"
Doing the very thing I watched a mother do to her daughter years ago;
yet oblivious to my own wrong doing.
I became my daughters judge; one who sentenced her without hearing her story.
I saw the emptiness and hurt in her children's eyes.
The protector of children broke loose in me once again.
For in my heart, children rely on us, and we must always be there for them.
But what was I missing? I wanted to tear them from her loving arms;
feeling she was not the mother they needed her to be.
Judging, ignoring anything that would set her from my cruel thoughts.
The children cried that they loved their mom and would not leave her.
I held her in my arms today, cried silently inside.
I step back and ask, "What am I doing? Lord, what has come of me?
My daughter needed me, yet I walked away! What have I done?
I hold before me, my daughter who is a shell of herself. So sick and in need of love,
understanding and comfort. Yet I walked away from her when she needed me most."
"Father you know my heart. You know I want to shine with your love light;
Yet I walked away from the very thing You teach and show. Not once have you ever
left my side, yet I walked away from one of Your children to struggle without her mom."
I am on bended knee, asking for forgiveness Father and daughter.
I never meant to walk away. I never meant to ignore all that you were crying out to me;
my beautiful, loving daughter. You tried to reach out and I pushed you away.
For that I am deeply sorry. I only saw the hurt of the children and not the hurt of my
very own daughter. I was angry with you for seemingly doing what I was actually doing.
I pray that you can forgive me for not being the woman I so long desire to be.
I see before me a daughter who is week, desperately in need of care, love and understanding.
I vow to you my daughter to always be there by your side. Listening instead of judging,
there to hold you when you need holding. There to catch you when you need catching.
There to listen, when you need listening to.
I now realize that the love you have for your children is strong.
I now realize that you have no longer the strength to carry on your daily needs.
I want to be that strength for you to lift you when you fall.
My daughter, my beautiful sweet daughter. My heart breaks today for the hurt I have caused our family. I did not set a good example. May this be a lesson none of us will ever forget. May the generational curses be broken and the love of the Lord prevail over all.
And so my daughter, I ask for forgiveness and leave you with this prayer:
Father God, I come to You today to thank you for the beautiful treasures you have bestowed upon our family. You gave me a wonderful Godly husband that is there for his children as You are always there for us. You gave us a wonderful son and daughter, both of whom we are very proud of. You have bestowed upon us beautiful grand children from both our son and daughter. For those gifts, I am eternally grateful.
Father I come with heavy heart for all the wrong I have done. I ask for forgiveness for the hurtful tongue and actions I have taken. I ask that the generational curses that have been brought upon our family be broken now, tossed and buried at the foot of the cross to never again be able to strike this family down.
Father, You have given us a beautiful daughter of whom I know deep down still believes in You and so very needs you. I lift her up to You Father and ask that You be her physician and heal her of all illnesses and renew her strength Lord. Not only physical strength but spiritual as well. Father, You have given us a beautiful gift from above, please do not take her from us. Heal her now I ask in Jesus Name. For you have said, "By Your stripes we are healed." You are the great and mighty and Only God! The Alpha and Omega, the One and Only. You are an awesome God Father; and we call upon You now for healing. I ask this in Jesus sweet and Holy Name, Amen!
Have faith my sweet daughter, be healed in His Holy Name! I love you unconditionally for all eternity. Be strong and know that we are here for you always, never to walk away again.
With Love now and forever,
Mom
His reponse opened doors.
I walked away from the daughter that means the world to me.
Why you ask, because I let the ways of the flesh walk in.
I held within my arms a shell of a woman.
I saw the darkness in her eyes; knowing her light was slowly dying out.
Yet I did not let it strike the chord it should have.
No empathy did I feel; only confusion and frustration.
I thought to myself, "I did not raise you this way! What is wrong with you?"
Doing the very thing I watched a mother do to her daughter years ago;
yet oblivious to my own wrong doing.
I became my daughters judge; one who sentenced her without hearing her story.
I saw the emptiness and hurt in her children's eyes.
The protector of children broke loose in me once again.
For in my heart, children rely on us, and we must always be there for them.
But what was I missing? I wanted to tear them from her loving arms;
feeling she was not the mother they needed her to be.
Judging, ignoring anything that would set her from my cruel thoughts.
The children cried that they loved their mom and would not leave her.
I held her in my arms today, cried silently inside.
I step back and ask, "What am I doing? Lord, what has come of me?
My daughter needed me, yet I walked away! What have I done?
I hold before me, my daughter who is a shell of herself. So sick and in need of love,
understanding and comfort. Yet I walked away from her when she needed me most."
"Father you know my heart. You know I want to shine with your love light;
Yet I walked away from the very thing You teach and show. Not once have you ever
left my side, yet I walked away from one of Your children to struggle without her mom."
I am on bended knee, asking for forgiveness Father and daughter.
I never meant to walk away. I never meant to ignore all that you were crying out to me;
my beautiful, loving daughter. You tried to reach out and I pushed you away.
For that I am deeply sorry. I only saw the hurt of the children and not the hurt of my
very own daughter. I was angry with you for seemingly doing what I was actually doing.
I pray that you can forgive me for not being the woman I so long desire to be.
I see before me a daughter who is week, desperately in need of care, love and understanding.
I vow to you my daughter to always be there by your side. Listening instead of judging,
there to hold you when you need holding. There to catch you when you need catching.
There to listen, when you need listening to.
I now realize that the love you have for your children is strong.
I now realize that you have no longer the strength to carry on your daily needs.
I want to be that strength for you to lift you when you fall.
My daughter, my beautiful sweet daughter. My heart breaks today for the hurt I have caused our family. I did not set a good example. May this be a lesson none of us will ever forget. May the generational curses be broken and the love of the Lord prevail over all.
And so my daughter, I ask for forgiveness and leave you with this prayer:
Father God, I come to You today to thank you for the beautiful treasures you have bestowed upon our family. You gave me a wonderful Godly husband that is there for his children as You are always there for us. You gave us a wonderful son and daughter, both of whom we are very proud of. You have bestowed upon us beautiful grand children from both our son and daughter. For those gifts, I am eternally grateful.
Father I come with heavy heart for all the wrong I have done. I ask for forgiveness for the hurtful tongue and actions I have taken. I ask that the generational curses that have been brought upon our family be broken now, tossed and buried at the foot of the cross to never again be able to strike this family down.
Father, You have given us a beautiful daughter of whom I know deep down still believes in You and so very needs you. I lift her up to You Father and ask that You be her physician and heal her of all illnesses and renew her strength Lord. Not only physical strength but spiritual as well. Father, You have given us a beautiful gift from above, please do not take her from us. Heal her now I ask in Jesus Name. For you have said, "By Your stripes we are healed." You are the great and mighty and Only God! The Alpha and Omega, the One and Only. You are an awesome God Father; and we call upon You now for healing. I ask this in Jesus sweet and Holy Name, Amen!
Have faith my sweet daughter, be healed in His Holy Name! I love you unconditionally for all eternity. Be strong and know that we are here for you always, never to walk away again.
With Love now and forever,
Mom
His reponse opened doors.
Friday, March 19, 2010
Fridays Funnies Post II: Why the Fight Started
I Needed a Laugh Today and Recieved this e-mail. I Laughed! Be ready when you reach the last one. And don't cheat, read them all. ;) A second Funny Follows this post.
Ever wonder in your relationship, how 'the fight' started...:
One year, a husband decided to buy his mother-in-law a cemetery plot as a
Christmas gift...
The next year, he didn't buy her a gift.
When she asked him why, he replied,
"Well, you still haven't used the gift I bought you last year!"
And that's how the fight started...
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My wife and I are watching Who Wants To Be A Millionaire while we were in
bed.
I turned to her and said,
'Do you want to have Sex?'
'No,'
she answered.
I then said,
'Is that your final answer?'
She didn't even look at me this time, simply saying
'Yes.'
So I said,
'Then I'd like to phone a friend.'
And that's when the fight started...
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I took my wife to a restaurant.
The waiter, for some reason, took my order first.
'I'll have the strip steak, medium rare, please..'
He said,
'Aren't you worried about the mad cow?'
'Nah, she can order for herself.'
And that's when the fight started...
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My wife sat down on the couch next to me as I was flipping the channels.
She asked,
'What's on TV?'
I said,
'Dust.'
And then the fight started...
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My wife was hinting about what she wanted for our upcoming anniversary..
She said,
'I want something shiny that goes from 0 to 200 in about 3 seconds.'
I bought her a scale.
And then the fight started...
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My wife and I were sitting at a table at her high school reunion, and she
kept staring at a drunken man swigging his drink as he sat alone at a nearby
table.
I asked her,
'Do you know him?'
'Yes,'
she sighed,
'He's my old boyfriend... I understand he took to drinking right after we
split up those many years ago, and I hear he hasn't been sober since.'
'My God!'
I said,
'Who would think a person could go on celebrating that long?'
And then the fight started...
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THE BROKEN LAWN MOWER:
When our lawn mower broke and wouldn't run, my wife kept hinting to me that
I should get it fixed.
But, somehow I always had something else to take care of first, the truck,
the car, playing golf. Always something more important to me.
Finally she thought of a clever way to make her point.
When I arrived home one day, I found her seated in the tall grass, busily
snipping away with a tiny pair of sewing scissors. I watched silently for a
short time and then went into the house. I was gone only a minute, and when
I came out again I handed her a toothbrush.
I said, 'When you finish cutting the grass, you might as well sweep the driveway.'
The doctors say I will walk again, but I will always have a limp.
Friday's Funnies: Funny Street Signs Spotted Across The Country - When.com Blog - The Best Local Events Guide
I just had to share this one with you all. I haven't made it through the complete list, but so far, they do bring a chuckle. Hope you all enjoy, and remember: LAUGHTER truly is the "best" medicine! Seldom cry, rarely frown, laugh often and smile alot!
Funny Street Signs Spotted Across The Country - When.com Blog - The Best Local Events Guide
Funny Street Signs Spotted Across The Country - When.com Blog - The Best Local Events Guide
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