Friday, April 24, 2009
Join Brenda and the rest of us. Start at Brenda's at The Family Revised
Okay, so I'm going to go out on a limb here and try it again! I decided I needed to do something with my unhealthy self, found out about this program at great granny grandma's and decided to join. We have assignments, and today's is to write about awesomeness. So here goes.
I think it is awesome that there are those out there willing to support one another through our trials of becoming healthy.
I think it's awesome to have so many great friends through the blog-o-sphere.
I think it's awesome to set a goal and be able to accomplish it with someone else.
Now to catch up, I'll do the first assignment as well. Tell you what my 5 goals are.
1. To get my family and grand children on a healthy eating plan.
2. To finally be secure with my looks. (I know we are suppose to love ourselves as we were made by God, but I do believe He would rather have me healthy and a good size).
3. To not worry about the expense of eat healthy and just buy the right foods.
4. To stop making excuses and just do it! (Exercise that is and eat write, I guess that would help, huh?)
5. To be more positive about all this instead of negative which does no one any good. ;) So in other words, have a can do attitude and stick with the plan!!!
So there you have it. Please pray for me! I'm going to need lots of divine intervention, and I don't mean that lightly either.
So how did I get to this point of basic desperation? Well, I've had a wait issue most my life. I'm not blaming anyone but myself, but while growing up, I always heard, eat some more. Go ahead finish it off. You've got room for a little more don't you? And on and on. I learned to love food. Then while in the military, I became too thin. Okay, we know the yo-yo thing is very unhealthy. I was happy, but my body wasn't. Then I became pregnant, which the first pregnancy wasn't too bad, I lost most the weight and got back into my clothes shortly after. But then came the second baby. She was born 15 months after the first. Oh boy, did I gain weight. I had a hard time taking it off. Then I lost and looked great. Then I went back to work, ate like a pig and was the heaviest I'd ever been. Then I went on a diet a while later, and looked great, then put it back on in Europe. Came back, started walking every day, and doing aerobics, looked and felt great, was eating right as well. Then gained it all back and then some. So it's been an on going battle.
I want to start eating right again and stick with it. There isn't a whole lot of exercising that I love to do that I can do. I have back problems that keeps me from aerobics. (crying). I have rheumatoid arthritis that has basically ruined my knees and was told no more walking (sobbing hysterically) I love walking more than anything. Also have FMS (fybromyalgia) which works with the arthritis and makes it unbearable to even move some days. And now, well now I have numbing in half of my feet. Am still working on finding out what that is all about. I also have neck problems that can bring on horrific headaches to the point of not being able to function. The last one had the left side of my face numb and then the left side of my body felt that way. I can't go to the gym as there really isn't a whole lot I can do there, so it's money that really wouldn't be put to very good use. Swimming is my only option, but again, money is an issue.
So here I am. We have a stationery bike which I got back on finally yesterday. Boy did that feel good! Paying the price today, but that's okay. It will take time and will not give up this time. One day at a time. God will take good care of me, as He wants us to take good care of His tents that He has loaned us while here on earth. I say good luck to all the others doing this as well. I'm believing in success!!!